Wednesday, August 04, 2010

梦想

张小娴说:
“我们要去梦想那不可能之梦想。
当别人告诉我事情有多困难的时候,我会用这一句话来勉励自己。
当别人告诉我明天有多么悲观的时候,我也用这句话来安慰自己。
当别人告诉我不要再做白日梦,我会偷偷在心里把这句话念一遍。”
摘自《你微笑,我说谎。》

曾经,
出国念书对我而言是多么遥不可及的一件事。
一来,我的学校也只有一个学生得过奖学金出国,
二来,印象中,能得奖学金出国是件多么了不起的事。
所以,
它对我来说是真的很遥不可及。

在我活在这世上18年半后,
我终于实现了儿时梦想,
虽然长大后我也不敢奢望这梦想会成真。
虽然它还没成真,
但至少,
我已经为自己赢得一张飞往国外的票,
成不成功,
最后还是靠自己,
不稳定分子依然存在。

得知消息的那刹那,
我是跳了起来,
瞬间,
以为自己进入了天堂。

开学后,
才发现,
原来自己掉进了另一个陷阱。
那在我结束这里的学业,
真的能够使用那张票后,
我会不会发现自己再次掉进了地狱呢?

那天在系友屋里看见了她的座右铭
“自己选的路,跪着走也要走完它。”
多么悲壮的一句话。
可是,
我不希望我是跪着结束这段旅程。

这里的氛围很压迫,
看着身边的人都很努力,
自己没办法闲着,
会有愧疚感,
会觉得对不起纳税人。
所以逼着自己也要努力,
非常不像平时的我。
其实,
我没有很快乐。

Friday, July 30, 2010

CRUSH

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be?
Where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you?
Are you holding back
Like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

Thursday, June 24, 2010

New image

我的小小部落已经被荒废很久了
今天回来为它换一换新衣
也好久没有用华文书写了
真的很怀念
之前和朋友们说要搞什么华语作文联谊会
哈哈
到现在连踪影都没个

好朋友说
蓝色今年是我们肖羊的宝宝们的幸运颜色
天蓝色也好
清清的
让我心情为之一亮
说来话长
我还真觉得蓝色今年为我带来了蛮多好运
单是得到了奖学金出国一事
就足以证明它的带运程度
面试当天
我是穿着一身蓝色马来女装上“战场”的
当时我心里忐忑不安
深怕自己再次被拒绝
面试结束后
我决定把心里不安抛诸脑后
到Sunway Pyramid和妈咪一起吃了泰国大餐
然后到SS15 Taylor's把朋友接回家(我们住在同个公寓,但不同单位)
因为当时下着很大很大的一场雨
不知是很巧还是我真的很幸运
让我遇见了一个人
那人是我在做工时的一名顾客
也是Taylor's学生
在看见他的第一眼
我就认定他是个不错的男生
至少外貌上是不错啦
XD
总之是个养眼的料
在拐入了那条街道后
我就看见了他修长的背影
车子缓缓驶近他身旁
果然是他!
不过我们注定就是彼此生命中一个不起眼的过客
看了就算了
我偷偷在内心里感叹
世界真是小啊!

我不明白
在周遭的人里
我找不到一个可以和我分享这种奇妙的人
我常常会为了一个小小的巧合而感到兴奋不已
是因为我认为人与人之间的缘分本来就来得很不容易
可是每当我和身边人分享的时候
他们却总是很不屑
纳闷ing~~


部落格
上面一朵蒲公英
太好了
=)
蒲公英将是我最后归属
对于这次和蒲公英家族们办的营会
感言将在最后补上
暂时还没找到抒发心内汹涌感受的出口

其实我还不是很满意现在我小小部落的形象
再慢慢改吧
慢慢来
总会有满意的时候的
=)

Thursday, May 13, 2010

其实,我要的很简单

你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气 我真是想念

那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了 谁还在等呢

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧 管它去哪呀

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心 其实更长


刘若英-我们没有在一起

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Last Reunion

Woke up at 6.30am this morning.
Later than I expect, I can't hear my alarm ringing eh!
Haih~
I felt like my head was tore apart when I woke up.
*Good laa..called you to sleep earlier but you slept at 3am*
=.=''
Today I'm going back to Tanjung Sepat for the Hari Kecemerlangan in my school.
School that I've spent 5 years of my youth time inside there,
And hell yea!
I'm 18 and I'm legal now!!
No one can stop me from breaking school rules now!
XDXD
*Of course laa..You're not gov school student anymore*
That's the main reason I'm not going Form 6!
I don't wanna wear school uniforms.
*That make me look fat..even though I'm fat in fact..:S*
But I still love secondary school though.
A lot of memory is generated inside there,
I can't remember every little thing of it,
But the feeling just won't fade away.
We've been childish and argued over little things that we might feel ridiculous and funny when we're recalling back the memories.
But that's how we grow up.
The process may be hard for us, but it really taught us a lot.
When I stepped in my school,
The feeling was just so familiar,
And luckily the teachers still recognize me and I still like to joke with our BC teacher.
And I saw a lot of new teachers in my school too.
Can't call out their names.
I heard the old toilets were all closed down already and the new toilet is in use now.
Wondering how crowded will the new toilet be during recess time.
XDXD
I'm still regretting that I didn't go for a walk in the school and take some photos as this will be the last time for me to get into the school.
But never mind, I'll go and steal some pictures from another friend.
I knew he love to take photos, as he used to be a student reporter last time when we're still in school.


Haizz..12As also no use if I can't secure myself any scholarship.


This crazy fella is the best student for Maths, Add. Math, Physics, Biology, Chemistry and Sejarah!!

2 of us(Credit to Chiau Khoon). Another 2 of girls were sitting behind. Oh ya..Her name is Sim Yee, you can call her Ah Tan shortly! hahahaa
*We're the gang of 4*
XDXD
Emm..I think we used to be the nightmare of teachers when we're in Form 1.
Try to imagine it,
my friend(in the pic above) and me was punished to stand on the desk for talking in the class.
And during lunch just now,
She told me that she still remember what we're talking that time until we're punished.
Well, she said we're talking about FOOD that moment!!
*sweat*
And our form teacher even had to switch our places to avoid more complaints from other teachers.
XDXD
And oh yeah~
We did improve by now.
We IMPROVED our TALKING SKILLS now.
We can talk whenever we go!!
XDXD


The event booklet. Credit to Mr Lim Chiau Khoon. hehe


Neh Neh Neh!!
Saw that one in blue T-shirt and hiding behind the chairs?
That's our speaker in our gang.(Lik Hong!! :D)
And the pink one is the BROADCASTING STATION.
She's staying in the same apartment with me but different block and unit.(The pink one, her name is Hui Li.)
It's really good to have a friend staying nearby.
Once she said, our friendship had sublimated into something more closer and more similar to families now.
=)
By the way, the way we're communicating seems really childish.
Just look the conversation below(translated from Chinese into English already):
Hui Li: Yu Jie~~~
Me: What??
Hui Li: Can you go and eat shit??
Me: Oh~
Then she'll be very happy ad..Weirdo huh? XDXD

Another conversation between her and SimYee:
Hui Li: Ah Tan~~~
Sim Yee: What??
Hui Li: Can you go die??
Sim Yee: =.=''

Emm..her words may seem like cursing, but don't misunderstand, it's just a way how we communicate and spend our FREE time.
XDXD
There's more lame things we're doing everyday or we can say EVERY MOMENT we spend together now.
We're apart now.
='(
Now I missed school days a lot.

The other friends as well..well emm..suyee looked a bit daydreaming..hahaha

I took this pic when they're talking but Lian Ai realized it and covered her face with the event booklet..Ish ish ish...==



Why I'm putting this pic of SimYee??hahaha
No idea..
Just miss them guys a lot~

Gotta go now..
Have to get ready for the dinner with my grandmother tonight.
So hungry now already.
@.@
Auf Wiedersehen!!

Monday, May 03, 2010

Recent Life

I was trying to fill up my recent life with something else but obviously I can't.
X(
I'm going more and more depending on my friend.
I went to find her everyday and we've seen each other 7 days a week last week!
That's horrible..>.<
But I think I've used to it already since her house is really near with mine.
XDXD



My heart get more confused as everyday passed.
I wondered how will my future be.
It's obvious that it won't turn out as I want it to be.
But God knows I really want it to be so badly!!
Study?
Family??
Friend???
Relationship????
Money?????
There's too much variables that we can't control in our life.
I just hope I'll have the courage to go through it.
Especially the dilemma I'm having now.
Just plenty of my friends knew about it.
I know the Rainbow is just over there.
My Rainbow.
=)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

My latest news!

It had been two months ago I posted my last post in my bloggie~
I had left my little blog in dust! XDXD
And now I'm back.

JANUARY(JANUAR)
I went to work on January in Sunway Pyramid
In WINTER TIME
I had a good time in there
And I knew some awesome colleagues
They're really nice~
I think I'm lucky to work with them
Since I heard lots of stories from many people who complained that their colleague wasn't good or bullying them. Well, there may be some problems related to work, but it was not a really problem, Winter Time really gave me a good working experience~I talked and communicated with customers who came from a different culture, different language, different religion, different races, different education backgrounds and etc. They really made me understand many things. And normally after finished serving them, my colleague and me will gossip about anything, their friends, their life, and also last but not least...our customers! We'll nag and brag about some troublesome customers and scolding them behind~*evil smile*
ARR~it's normal la right? If we didn't express it, the rage will increase and at last causing huge stress on us..hmm..since we're still growing youths, I think we should relax ourselves by doing this. No harm right? haha!


FEBRUARY(FEBRUAR)
Time passes by and here the February came.
I'm still working in Winter Time.
But there's some change. My supervisor resigned! So that means only two of my colleagues and me, three of us will be working in the shop! And HEY! Three of us were all SPM leavers! O.o
We're helpless!T.T
Our supervisor resigned only after Chinese New Year~
Before Chinese New Year our company held an annual dinner in The Garden's Redbox!
I got took several pictures
But I'm lazy to post it here.
Whoever wanna c it can go to my facebook!
XD
Actually I'm lazy to write every little thing of my life inside here.
I'll try to update my bloggiee more often next time.
zzz...
haha
And oh ya!
I've bought Super Junior Concert ticket!!
ROCK PITT B!!!
Who's having the same ticket as me!!??
Alright~I know I'm talking to myself..
No one will come to this creepy blog! *lol*

MARCH(MAERZ)
I resigned from my work a day before SPM release date~
That's the big issue for me!
My future!
zzz..
My mum brought me the way long back to Tanjung Sepat the night before my SPM release date~
Thanks her! *smile*
Oh! And her boyfriend too..
:)
On the really important morning,
my aunt called me.
She's a teacher in my previous school.
She said Ashvinia, our top student and also my classmate had already knew her result even though our results haven't arrive yet.
She got straight A's and that's in our expectation! Congratz Ash! :)
And a couple minutes after that,
my aunt called me again!
She said I got straight A's too!
And OMO!
I was like going to cry!
Was that real??
Or she got the wrong information??
I tried to calm myself down.
And I decided to believe it only after I saw my own result slip!
My heart was beating really fast at the moment.
Around 11am, Pei Foong came and fetch me and we went to school together with the others.
An Indian teacher congrats me once he saw me,
=.=
I wanna know my results!!
But accident happened.
When I went up to the school office,
Our penolong kanan stopped us and scolded us to hell!
Hell ya!
I forgotten to bring long jeans back laa.
That's why I have to wear short jeans.
Can't you just forgive me???
Haizz..Don't care
XD
When I went up there, my aunt was waiting me there already.
She handed over an angpau to me, and congrats me.
:)
Its a RM300 angpau!
Thanks aunt!
That's a huge one!
keke

Well since we can't go into the office, so we went to the school canteen and wait for our previous form teacher.
There's a lot of stories but I'm lazy to tell it.=.=
And when I saw my result I was like *BOOM*
There it goes:
BM A+
BI A+
MM A+
MT A+
SEJ A+
PM A+
P.AKAUN A+
BC A+
PHY A+
CHE A
BIO A
KBC A-
That's what I want!
And its more than what I've expected.
A+ for BAHASA CINA??!!!
That's a miracle!
XDXD
And I get an 1A for my GCE-O English paper.*winks*
And also 1 for my LCCI cert.
I'm so satisfied.
*VICTORY*